dude, the only time i can get anything done is at night when im exhausted. my child is a little pain in the booty and she isn't even old enough to be rightfully so. everytime i put her down she screams. not like screams as in cries, but screams as if she's yelling at me to get my ass over there and pick her up. she'll yell over and over and over again until after a while she'll start to whimper like she's about to really shed some tears and that's usually the point where i give in and pick her up, again. i don't know what to do. i don't know if she's becoming spoiled or if this is just a stage she's going through. whatever it is, it's hard, man. i go and go and go all day. i finally understand what my mom meant when she'd say " a mothers work is never done".  this shit is 24/7 and no joke! what can i say, though? did i really expect otherwise?

in other news, im hella excited because the grass robert and i planted is growing so good. it's going to be two weeks tomorrow and that shit already looks like it needs to be mowed. after it gets a little bit thicker im going to get in there and pull the bricks back up that i put in the ground and lift them up like 2 inches. i accidently dug them too low and whenever i water theres a big ass puddle. that took me and the neighbor like 3 freakin hours, too! oh well. i guess it'll give me something to do. besides that, everything looks good, though. my flowers are still alive and the grass is growing between the stepping stones like i wanted it to. my lil bubbers is going to have a little yard to play in the summer! woo hoo!

i talked to my sister today. she says lilly is doing good and getting bigger already. i can't wait til i get to see her again. she has that angelic baby smell. oh my god! it smells so freaking good! it makes me sad though cause penelope doesn't smell like that anymore. it's like a slice of heaven, i swear. i miss it. i can't believe my baby is getting so big, already. it's a good thing danni had a baby, cause i might of had to have me another one!

well folks, it's been fun. the excitement must have tuckered me out. my lids are getting low.

goodnight.

how long will i be considered a new mommy? unbelievably, it's already been 6 months. i guess that's new, huh. i don't know. just wondering cause um.. i need to know how long i'm allowed to use just having a baby as an excuse for being a lard ass. does anybody know?

i feel like a geek admitting this, but i totally joined this calorie counting website, which might i add, is THEEEE shit. i'm kinda on a website joining roll. can you tell? i mean i haven't been to livejournal for like ever, but what the hell. i need to do some type of journaling/blogging. its damn near mandatory for every "new mommy" says What to Expect. i don't care about that, but shit. i can type faster than i can find a piece of paper, pen and a place to sit down, let alone, write and with a newly crawling baby, time for myself is hard to come about. WHO WOULD HAVE FUCKING THOUGHT?! it's crazy how things have changed. anyway, this is it. please allow me to introduce the untitled chapter part uno of my new life as a so-called family gal.

i can't write much now, but i will just leave you with this... LIFE IS GREAT. 

MORE TO COME... (my baby feeders are needed)